What Are You Looking At???

Have you ever been out and noticed someone is staring at you or your family? You know you causally notice it and then look away, but you can still tell they are looking at you. I guess your reaction depends on who it is and where you are. I am pretty used to getting stares and the occasional person who says something. But, when my family went to the Cavalcade of Customs we had all eyes on us. It was like we walked into a room with a bunch of people who had no common sense. Usually I can ignore things like this. When there are three little people in your family you kind of get used to it. To be honest when we go out in Kentucky we don't get many stares or comments. Only if we go to Wal-Mart. Yes, I said Wal-Mart. Go figure. I have actually had to say things to people. You don't want to catch me on a bad day. There are the people who actually follow you around the store and make fun of you. I don't get how things like that are acceptable. People in Ohio tend to stare more and say rude things. I don't know why it is just the way things seem to be. So anyway, while at the Cavalcade of Customs we had people right next to us talking about us and pointing and laughing. Then there were the people who took pictures of us when we they thought we were not looking. I mean why would someone want a picture? I just don't get that. It was so bad that Jay wanted to leave after being there like 5 minutes. There was no way I was gonna let those people make feel so uncomfortable that we would leave. Whitney noticed it and she wanted to stay but she was extremely annoyed. Noah being the gentle spirit he is didn't notice anything. He was too interested in all the cars to look at. We couldn't leave! We had to meet Helio!!! So we walked around while people took pleasure in making us feel like we were on display. After about 45 minutes Whitney too said she wanted to leave. I said let's walk upstairs and then we can leave. Jay said there is no way I am waiting the big line to meet Helio. I said let's just go see. So I agreed after a quick walk around upstairs we would go. We walked into the conference room and suddenly we all realized we were in line to meet ....you guessed it...Helio. I was so excited. To our surprise the upstairs was less congested and we felt a little more comfortable. So after meeting Helio we left. While in the car we starting talking about how horrible the people had acted. Jay said everyone there was staring. Then Noah being so innocent said," Dad the people were looking at you because they knew you worked there and they were jealous because you are so cool." We all stopped talking and looked at each other and smiled and let out a heartfelt laugh. If only the whole world could see things through the eyes of a child.

This is one of those posts where I just needed to vent a little. Not a post to make anyone feel sorry for us. That is the last thing I would want. I just wish we lived in a world where people were more educated and considerate of others.

Cavalcade Of Customs

We were able to get free tickets to the KOI Cavalcade of Customs this weekend. Noah was so excited. From the time we got in the car he could not stop talking and asking questions. As we were walking in to the building he was kind of bouncing, you know like Tigger from Winnie the Pooh. It was too cute. We got in line to meet his favorite Indy Car Driver Helio Castroneves. At first Noah didn't want his picture with him, because he is so shy. I talked him into getting his picture with him. He was so glad he did. Helio was an extremely nice guy. You could tell he was very genuine. You might remember him from Dancing With The Stars. Meeting him was the highlight of the show. I was not leaving there without meeting him. Whitney said I acted like a little kid. She kept looking at me and smiling, and asked her what? She just smiled at me and shook her head. Well, I never got to meet anyone famous before. I could have cared less about the cars. And boy did we see lots of cars. We saw the Knight rider cars, Speedracer, and The Batmobile.

How do you know God's will for your life?

When ever I have an important decision to make I always take my thoughts to God through prayer. I would like to say I always know right away what to do, but I never know. I ask for things through prayer and then when my prayers are answered I freak out. Mostly at the unknown. I wonder if this is really what is best for my family. God does answer me. I just am not listening. Most times the answer is right in front of my face, but my thoughts and the distractions of the world consume me so I quiet God's voice or completely block it out. I know I need to work right now for financial reasons. I know I want to work because my days are consumed by boredom. With all the kids in school all day, the days are quiet and lonely. I want to be around people. I want to work in a doctor's office. After many prayers from friends and family. I got just that a job working in a physical therapist office. Now, that my prayers were answered I am terrified. I am pretty sure I will like the job. The pay is very good and it has awesome benefits. The people I am working for seem really nice too. This is all so new to me. A full time job working five days a week from 8am-6pm. This will change our lives in a very good way. We won't have to worry so much about money anymore. It will be a huge burden lifted. Why do I always second guess myself? I will only be loosing two hours a day with my kids. So like 10 hours a week less that I will see them. I should be happy. But, I do have to say I feel a sense of guilt about leaving them even for that short amount of time. They have a parent lunch coming up in a few weeks and I will be working so I will have to miss it. This has never been an issue for me before. I was always able to go everything they had. I don't want them be mad or sad that I can't make it. Also, when do people who work find time for things like Dr. appointments? I know deep down in my heart this job is the best thing for me and my family. I guess the 18 years of me being a stay at home mom have me feeling like I am trading that life in for a new one. Which in a sense I am. I know that God has directed me to this job with this place. Now, if I could only quiet the outside influences and my own thoughts so I could let God's voice be heard.